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Alternatives to self-harm
Self-harm is when someone deliberately hurts or injures him or herself. This can take a number of forms including:

* cutting
* taking overdoses of tablets or medicines
* punching oneself
* throwing their bodies against something
* pulling out hair or eyelashes
* scratching, picking or tearing at one's skin causing sores and scarring
* burning
* inhaling or sniffing harmful substances

Some people self-harm on a regular basis while others do it just once or a few times. For some people it is part of coping with a specific problem and they stop once the problem is resolved. Other people self-harm for years whenever certain kinds of pres
No you do not care. Some of you will believe
anything i say.

Like it is some kind of play.

Like all the scars and blood will
just go away.

Some of you have no idea how
many times i have pictured you
taking my blade and just hugging me.

But that won't happen.

I noticed it.

I did.

I noticed that,

You.

Don't.

Give.

A.

Fuck.
SmileShe walks down the hall, smiling.
Her smile somehow brightens the hallway.
Inside, she is dying.
Happily talking to friends, she pushes her problem away.

The minute she's alone...
They all attack.
Striking fear in her heart, not wanting her feelings to be shown.
Her feelings all fight back.

As soon as the door is closed, she breaks down.
Not really caring, now that their all gone.
She lets the monster out, freeing everything, even the frown.
She looks into the sky, horrified that it is dawn.

So she gets ready for more.
Ready's that same artificial smile.
The one she wore the day before.
The one she'll probably be wearing
No title yetRain fell from the cloud-covered sky like the shower of events rippling across the land it blanketed. A single man walked quickly along the worn, sodden dirt trail that cut across a string of adjacent farms. Treading through the muddy puddles that were seemingly endless on the abandoned road, the cloaked man glanced upward, hoping to spot a sign that he was about to arrive at his destination. Hopes dashed once more, he remembered how this road had once been bustling with tradesman and farmers heading in and out of the town somewhere ahead of him. Now the farms were overgrown, the houses burned and broken, the blood absorbed in the ground he w
Each one of us Each one of us humans, were born to be different.
All of us strive to be beautiful.
Not one of us, wants to be seen as ugly.
None of us really are, when it comes deep down.
When you look at me, I'm the exception.
If you were to call me beautiful, I'd just deny it.
You'd be "trippin".
If I was a flower, to be picked from a field...
I'd be the one snipped and chosen last.
Who'd want the flower with the little smudge?
There will always be a girl who's seen as un attractive...
She will always be me.
Why Can't You See? I tell you I'm ok.
All is fine. I'm happy
eyes are just always red.

You believed me.

Have you ever even
thought about what I
do at night just to know
I'm alive. To feel again.
To gain hope again and
find all my lost hope.

My life is a bad dream
that is waiting to end.
I've gave up the fight
for my worthless life.

You brake my lonely
heart. But find out
you weren't the
first one to try, but
the first to make me
wish I'll die.
Outside Unable to Look InTalk to me,
Talk to me!

Let it out

Don't shut me off
From the pain you've been in
The suffering and hurt
I'm here to listen
Not to judge

Let me in

I'd never wanna hurt you
Please believe me
I wanna help you
Lift some of the burden
Take away the weight
Of silence

Open up

Keeping it bottled up
Only adds pressure
Until it explodes
Spilling your self
To whomever is there
A person that may or may not
Want to be there for you

I'll always listen

I will never be that person
You always expect
The one who leaves you
After something you've said
Spill your guts to me
It won't make me hate you
I'll love you forever
Nothing c
Three YearsShe asks what it was
that I miss about you. Wordless,
I move my lips as flashing thoughts
fall into view. I pick the stitches of my dress.

I was blind to the frays
appearing - I had not seen it coming
but I think the others did. Pity. I called
you my angel. You sent me home to find myself.

I want to keep my head floating between your cheek and shoulder
sharing warmth and knowledge. i feel it
now; the scent has gone and the chilled shadow lies

behind me. I feel the whispering doubt -
as if we have just met. Years
unravelling before me. You saved me.
Now I sit, mute and unchanging. I wait.
What Goes Through My HeadPanic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.This is what goes through my head. Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.It doesn't stop. Wish it was dead. Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.I saw your face.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.My heart started to race.  Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.My head started to pound.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Panic Attack.Get me out of this place.
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diary, diary.                                                          Monday. October 4th. 2010

Dear diary,

I discovered this morning that I ran out of lipstick.

Mortified, I tried to purchase my beloved miniature bar of whale blubber in Superdrug since their prices are reasonable. Plus, the shop itself is quite literally next door.

However, during my blubber search
it's like this.it's a tap leaking. drops of water falling to the steady rhythm of your syncopated heartbeat. no matter how tightly you turn the handle, it dripsdripsdrips as though it has a will of its own; that is my love for you. there is no "it will fade away in time." there is no "if you ignore it will become a distant memory." there is no off switch. i wish there was.

it's holding your breath and the all-encompassing silence that follows; leaving nothing but anguish, a burning sensation on your temple and a soft - yet prominent - ringing in your ears to muffle the nothingness. life pauses for all of five seconds and you exhale as though breathing has
who we are.always remember...
death is imminent.
life is beautiful.

we fall in love with
silhouettes, dreams and those who
we wish existed. weknowtheyneverwill

we bite our nails and
decorate our skin using
crimson graffiti.

we trail our fingers
down rippling flesh, broken bones
for satisfaction. tofillthatgnawinghole.

we move through the streets
like harvestmen; crawling and
waiting to be loved.

we weave ourselves in
a thorn-feathered tapestry
pasted together.

we need. we laugh. we
cry. we die. we smile. we love.
we wander, we lie.

we live. we need to
cradle ourselves at night and
adore who we are.

maybe then we can
start a rev
drown.You stand alone in
the pouring rain just waiting
as it soaks your bones.

Patience; a virtue
but it merely postpones your
impatient nature.

Quiet; a statue.
Your shield is permanently
clasped between your hands.

Silence is better
than lies, but it can be the
ultimate lie too.

Your lips are sealed. Thin,
dry, insatiable, soft,
voluptuous...Mine.

Tears dripping along
your rubicund cheeks taste like
sour, sugary grief.

I lick and devour
each drop. Your misery is
my Achille's heel...
celestial.dear x,

i always believed you were one of those people. impossible to hate, impossible to evade, impossible to obviate. yes, one of those.

because you always reminded me of cigarette smoke. twirling, whispy fumes of wonder dancing in the air. something you inhale, something you breathe, something you live. and never had i thought that a cancerous, calamitous and caustic substance retained such elegance. until i found you. now even the most futile aspects of my life are major parts of my world.

and you remind me of cigarettes because you're just so damn addictive.

dear x,

you're like efflorescence: you just keep growing, blossoming...beco

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:iconbowie-loon123:
Not sure if this is in the right category.

Note for myself and anyone considering suicide; You can live. You deserve life.

Do not use without my written consent.

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~spoonthesockmonkey Apr 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
yea, best note i ever saw
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~Music-Is-Life-3 Mar 6, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
This is exactly what I needed to hear/see right now. Thank you ( :
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~Freddiegurl38 May 8, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
sooooo so true!
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~Crauw Jun 18, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so true, I have friends that have considered suicide, one of them came very close. His mom came down stairs in time to hit the gun from his hand, and the first time he tried, he almost swallowed bleach. I helped him through his issues, though....
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~insanechild-point2 Jun 18, 2010
LOVE IT!
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~solemn Feb 18, 2010
Wish I could fave this a million times over :star:
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Mood: Love !VampireVirginPrinces Feb 12, 2010
aw huney :hug: it is so strong one :heart: Me loves et! [I know u hate the noobish english, but sorry! I just can't help it :( ]
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!WritingWantingWork Feb 11, 2010
very nice Bo Bo Loon :)
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=bowie-loon123 Feb 11, 2010  Student Writer
Thankies! :D
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!WritingWantingWork Feb 11, 2010
np...ies! lol
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